Asthma, Cancer and Emotional Eating

Yeah the headline says it all – those are three things I’m dealing with right now and suffice it to say – it’s hard!

Let’s start at the beginning, without spilling all the personal family details last night we received a phone call that a family member was in the hospital for what was originally thought to be a stroke, but turns out it was really cancer…. and it’s not looking good. I think that covers what emotions are going through our household right now.

Now moving onto the next blow of the day (though nowhere near as hard). I took my daughter to the doctor for what we thought was a chest cold. I left with a nebulizer and an asthma diagnosis. Honestly, I’m not that surprised – but it doesn’t make it hurt any less. Bella has dealt with chest colds we can’t shake year after year. We thought it was just a daycare thing since that’s pretty much the breeding ground for an entire germ civilization, but given her history, Daddy having asthma and the wheezing the doctor heard – well it was pretty obvious.

So we’ve been set up with a nebulizer and some medicine and a full mask breathing treatment. UGH … with a four year old … oh so fun! On the plus side, of all the things in the world that Bella could be diagnosed with … this is at least very common with a lot of options, medication and treatment. I’m hopeful … timing just really sucks.

So this brings me to the third topic of tonight’s post – emotional eating. Given the kind of day I’ve had… I’m not surprised I’ve been jumping onto chocolate land. It’s been a bad day for me nutritionally, but it’s ok. One bad day isn’t going to send me back to a lifetime of pounds. Yes, it was a bad day. Yes, I wanted nothing but chocolate and YES I hate to admit it but eating chocolate did make me feel better!

At this point, I take every crossroads as a learning experience because every day of my life is truly a learning experience. Yes, I battle with emotional eating – like so many other people have before me. Today, I let it get the best of me a little bit but I don’t care. I felt better and I moved on! Tomorrow is a new day and life will go on. We’ll take Bella’s asthma … we’ll deal with whatever other lemons life wants to deal but I’m not going to gain weight.

I just thought I’d share that!




New Year! New Me!

Looking back at the last year, I can’t say I’m sad to get rid of this year! Financially, this has been one of the hardest years of my life. I lost my job the day I spent $400 on tires. My husband’s car required significant funds to get up and running and then some jackass hit my car in the middle of the night forcing me to pay a $500 deductible. Simply put, it’s been an awful year for my bank account – all while attempting to save something to try to move in the spring.

Despite the financial burden, some really great things have occurred this year. I have an amazing job that is finally letting me spread my wings and use my talents. I really like my boss and mostly like the work I’m doing. It’s not exactly the perfect industry, but it’s certainly a great place to be. Hopefully as things continue and we get back on our feet – financially great things will follow.

Of course the best thing that has happened to me this year was the ability to finally lose weight and keep it off (so far). Losing 45 pounds this year has been nothing short of amazing. I feel amazing. I look better and I am much happier. I have discovered a new me and I can’t wait to see what 2013 brings for me.

With the new year in mind, here are some of my New Year’s Resolutions for 2013.

Hayley’s 2013 Resolutions

  • I will lose at least another 90 pounds in 2012 (that’s about 2 pounds a week with a little flexibility).
  • I will be the best damn employee I can be for my boss.
  • I will be a good wife and mother to my family.
  • I will do Cardio at least three days a week. 
  • I will do weight training at least two days a week.
  • I will make healthy choices at least 95% of the time (because there’s always room for a little enjoyment).
  • I will not give up, even if I gain a few pounds.
  • I will put my best food forward and keep running until I can run no more.
  • I will be happy in 2013.
  • I will become the person I’m meant to be.
  • I promise to blog at least once a week. This is likely the one I’ll struggle with the most.

Happy Tuesday!

Happy Tuesday everyone! I originally started writing a post titled “Happy Monday” but got a bit side tracked. I apologize for leaving you for a few days, but it’s been pretty crazy.

Friday night I went out line dancing with my mother at Saddle Ridge and it was a blast. My body media band told me I totally kicked ass! I had so much fun, I decided to go back on Saturday with my awesome friend, Maria.

When Sunday rolled around, I was pretty exhausted but I still managed to get to church and decorate the Christmas tree. A big thank you to my husband for taking care of the weekly meal plan and the weekly shopping (even if he forgot a few things).

Last night I had my monthly meeting for the Sexy and I Know It competition and I was pretty happy with my drop in weight. It doesn’t matter if it’s 1 or 10 … the point is – the scale number is decreasing. I don’t know where I’m at in the competition, but I”m really happy I took part in the entire event. It’s truly helped change my life.

So Tuesday came in with a lot of drama. Without getting into specifics, by 8 a.m. I was fuming with anger and the thought of turning around in the work parking lot to go to the gym and burn some steam crossed my mind a few times. Simply put – I was livid. I didn’t let the stress become my demise though. At the end of the day, I headed to the gym and turned the anger into something useful.

In addition to some quality anger management, I met with Jackie tonight. As a goal, she’s challenged me to cut back on my grains. I know this is going to be tough, but I’m committed and I know I can do it. It’s just going to require a bit of planning in advance. I’m going to start working on my meal plans tomorrow.

I’m still picking away at my Holiday Bingo Card for the gym. I have about 6 classes marked off so far. Tonight I did Step and Abs and was promptly reminded why I hated the class. It’s truly just not for me! Tomorrow I’ll be getting up early to try out Yoga (let’s all pray I don’t hurt myself) and then back to the gym later for a circuit training class with the amazing Jackson.

I hope everyone’s doing well out there. I’ll do my best not to go M.I.A. on you again.

It was bound to happen

see yourself I knew the day would come and I was hoping it would be soon! Today, I had that moment. The shining moment where you put ony our clothes and look in the mirror and feel like you’ve really accomplished something.

Today I pulled out a shirt I normally layer because I hated the way it hugged my curves (that I didn’t like). Normally, this is where the sweater over shirt comes into play but I just put it on and … (gasp) I looked great. It laid correctly, it didn’t hug everything I hate and it was actually loose on my body.

People kept telling me that I’d wake up and finally see the changes. Six months into this transformation (and really about 12 weeks), I finally see the differences in myself.

I’m literally jumping with joy! It’s the happiest I’ve been in a while. I know I’m getting one step closer to my goals. I just wanted to share that joy with you!

Hey! Where’d you get that recipe?

That has pretty much summed up the last few months of my life. Everything I make, bring or share has become theDetective constant question of where’d I get it. I looooooove it!

While I would LOVE for nothing more than to tell you that my amazing, loving and wonderful husband single-handedly created recipe from scratch … we’ll my nose would be bigger than Pinocchio. The fact is, while (as of late) we’ve been creating / adapting a lot of recipes. The reality is … I simply FIND them online.

It’s really not that hard. Take this weekend for example. I needed a great dish to bring for a potluck at work. The last time I brought Chocolate Cupcakes and they were simply divine. Originally, I was going to do that again but changed my mind. Carrots were on sale, which made me think of how much I love carrot cake …despite how terribly unhealthy it is. My next step was the internet. Surely, SOMEONE has come up with a great recipe for carrot cake that won’t go straight to my ass. One Google search and less than a second later… I had my recipe (compliments of Clean Eating Magazine).

Behold, I found something (close) in Carrot Bread with Apple Glaze. Super moist and yummy, I simply MUST try it. I couldn’t wait until Wednesday… I had to have it this weekend.

So I headed to the store, armed with the recipe and purchased the needed ingredients (which weren’t many since it was a fairly simple recipe with pantry staples). I made up the batch last night and WOW! Simply wow! It was moist, rich and oh-so- delicious …. You would THINK you’re cheating… but it’s only (wait for it) 155 calories (per my recipe).

While I was 99.9% happy with my awesome baking power (yes, I actually made this). I wasn’t happy with the glaze but we know how to alter it for Wednesday to give me just a hit of sweetness like a cream cheese frosting, without all the extra calories.

So, in answer to the question of “Where did I get that recipe,” it simple – the internet. If you want something … simply Google “Clean Eating” and the item or “Paleo” and the item. Both will yield great results and then adapt to your own tastes.

If you want a handful of websites to subscribe or check frequently and use for recipes, here’s some of my personal favorites. I get emails from all these websites and then have a filter in GMAIL to tag it with recipe. Rather than clutter my inbox, I send them all to a folder and periodically review it. This way I can keep all the recipes and I have one go-to place to find things. Some of the sites are a little more active than others. If you only pick a handful to look at, I highly recommend # 1- 10.

  1. Clean Eating
  2. Things my Belly Likes
  3. SkinnyTaste
  4. The Gracious Pantry
  5. The Iron You
  6. He and She Eat Clean
  7. My Whole Food Life
  8. Anja’s Food 4 Thought
  9. Running to the Kitchen
  10. Just Eat Real Food
  11. Paleo on a Budget
  12. You Can Do It Too
  13. Oh She Glows
  14. 365 Days of Clean Eating
  15. Eating Well
  16. Clean Eating Chelsey
  17. Fitting it All In
  18. Muncher Cruncher
  19. Divalicious in the City
  20. Nerd Fitness
  21. Clean Eating Mama
  22. The Paleo Diet
  23. The Yummy Life
  24. Eating Clean Works

Turkey Stew, Carrot Bread and Vegetable Dip

Tonight I posted a teaser of three dishes my husband and I created tonight. Boy were they YUMMY!

Let’s start with dinner. It was originally slated to be Chicken Veggie Stew but we pulled the chicken out that just didn’t smell Stewquite right. We were bummed, but adapted quickly. My husband grabbed the ground turkey out of the freezer and we turned it into chili. Boy was it delicious too!

Full of vegetables and flavor, our chili was a hit and we can’t wait to have it again tomorrow (after more time in the slow cooker) and only 152 calories per serving. Here’s a copy of how it looks in


Ingredients Calories Carbs Fat Protein Sugar Sodium
Red Pack – Petite Diced Tomatoes, 1 container (1 4/5 cups ea.) 88 18 0 4 11 630 Ico_delete
Red Pack – Crushed Tomatoes In Thick Puree, 1 container (1 4/5 cups ea.) 140 35 0 7 14 630 Ico_delete
Hunt’s – Tomato Paste, Original (Canada), 1 container (10 tbsp (30ml) ea.) 100 20 0 5 15 100 Ico_delete
Onions – Raw, 2 medium (2-1/2″ dia) 92 22 0 2 9 7 Ico_delete
Peppers – Sweet, red, raw, 1 medium (approx 2-3/4″ long, 2-1/2″ dia) 31 7 0 1 5 2 Ico_delete
Peppers – Sweet, yellow, raw, 1 pepper, large (3-3/4″ long, 3″ dia) 50 12 0 2 0 4 Ico_delete
Jennie-O – Fresh Ground Turkey, 16 oz 680 0 32 84 0 320 Ico_delete
Bush’s Best – Low-Sodium Pinto Beans, 1 container (1 4/5 cups ea.) 280 63 0 21 0 770 Ico_delete
Bush’s Best – Low Sodium Black Beans, 1 container (1 4/5 cups ea.) 368 81 2 25 4 840 Ico_delete
Total: 1829 258 34 151 58 3303
Per Serving: 152 22 3 13 5 275

Next on my agenda tonight was to prepare a test carrot bread for my pot luck on Wednesday at work. I found this one breadonline with a simple google search of “clean eating carrot cake.” While it’s bread, boy is it tasty. So rich and moist, it’s simply heaven. At only 155 calories a slice, this alternative to carrot cake is simply heavenly.

Ingredients Calories Carbs Fat Protein Sugar Sodium
Hodgson Mill – Old Fashioned Whole Wheat Flour, 1.5 cup 600 132 3 18 0 0 Ico_delete
Shredded Carrot – Shredded, 1.5 cup raw 70 16 0 2 10 130 Ico_delete
Sun-Made – Raisins, 1/4 Cup 130 31 0 1 29 10 Ico_delete
Honey, 0.5 cup 515 140 0 1 139 7 Ico_delete
Spices – Cinnamon, ground, 2 tbsp 35 11 0 1 0 4 Ico_delete
Baking soda, 1.5 tsp 0 0 0 0 0 1,888 Ico_delete
Eggs – Whole, raw, 1 large 74 0 5 6 0 70 Ico_delete
Eggs – White only, raw, 1 large 17 0 0 4 0 55 Ico_delete
Eggs – White only, raw, 1 large 17 0 0 4 0 55 Ico_delete
Oil – Vegetable, canola, 2 tbsp 248 0 28 0 0 0 Ico_delete
Trader Joe’s – Spiced Apple Cider, 0.25 fl oz (240 mL) 4 1 0 0 1 0 Ico_delete
Honey, 2 tbsp 128 35 0 0 34 2 Ico_delete
Mccormick’s – Pure Vanilla Extract, 2 tsp. (5mL) 24 2 0 0 2 0 Ico_delete


Total: 1862 368 36 37 215 2221
Per Serving: 155 31 3 3 18 185

Finally, my last attempt at preparation tonight was a quick veggie dip for my snap peas, tomatoes, and other Dipscrumptious vegetable snacks. Under 100 calories, I can’t wait to scarf this tomorrow with my veggies. It’s just the addition I needed.


Ingredients Calories Carbs Fat Protein Sugar Sodium
Danone (Canada – Oikos 0% Greek Yogurt, Plain, 1.5 cup(175g) 200 14 0 36 14 170 Ico_delete
Cheese – Feta, 0.33 cup, crumbled 131 2 11 7 2 552 Ico_delete
Cucumber – Peeled, raw, 1 medium 24 4 0 1 3 4 Ico_delete
Spices – Dill weed, dried, 2 tbsp 16 3 0 1 0 13 Ico_delete
Mc Realemon – Lemon Juice, 2 teaspoon 2 1 0 0 0 1 Ico_delete


Total: 373 24 11 45 19 740
Per Serving: 93 6 3 11 5 185


If you’re eating healthy and you don’t simply LOVE your food… you’re just not doing it right. I eat better now than I ever have in my life. My food is flavorful, filling and unbelievably delicious.

So many people ask me where I get my recipes, tomorrow I will reveal all my secrets. Well, they’re not really secrets, but I am putting together an amazing post highlighting that information. Stay tuned and make sure you’re following me.

Inspirational and Moving Day

Person i want to beToday has been a very moving day. Not only physically, but emotionally and it all started at the gym.

I woke up a little later than I wanted to, but I didn’t let that deter my trip to the gym this morning. I was shooting to arrive for 8:30 or 9 and I actually arrived at 9:15 a.m. I didn’t have a plan, but more so just wanted to run with whatever my body was feeling. Sometimes, those kind of days produce the best workouts.

I started on the elliptical machine (one of my favorites) with a quick warm up and then 10 minutes of solid running. I had my headphones on and I was just going to town. It may sound silly, but when I have my music on …. I feel empowered. I’ve loaded my workout list with songs I love to dance to at Saddle Ridge and other high-energy pop tunes. When these songs come on, I really take myself to a new level imaging how happy I’ll be when I can dance without pain and without worry of how I look.

Never Too LateSo I was going about my workout when 30 minutes in, a lady came over and stopped me. Apparently she’d been watching me go to town on the elliptical and weights and was just so inspired by me. We chatted for a bit and she hopped on the machine next to me and told me about what she’s going through. I offered up some of the things I learned and gave her my contact information.

To be honest, I really never thought I was an inspiring individual but apparently my story is reaching more people than I realize. I don’t think I’m doing anything special, but this journey has been very special to me. It’s truly touching to see how total strangers react to me and my journey.

After the gym, I head up to the store to grab a few things. I took those home and then picked up Arabella. We had a date to pick out a Pillow Pet for our angel tree tag. We try to be good parents and I know we can’t to much, but I can certainly spare a few dollars to ensure some other child has a toy on Christmas morning.

This year, we’ve actually done a two gift programs. The first was sponsored by my daughters preschool where they had a giving tree. Each of the tags on the tree were not for toys, but food and other household items. The tags were meant for seniors in the area and homeless people who were desperately in need of simple things. Because of the nature of the items (and my stockpile of coupons), we let Bella select two. Her choices were Coffee Creamer and Kitty Litter.

This was several weeks ago so when the angel trees started popping up, we selected a tag from the gym. Bella’s tag was a 7 year old girl who wanted a pillow pet. It was a perfect gift for Bella to pick out at the store. So we headed up to Walmart armed with the tag. The bin for the Pillow Pets were overflowing with styles and Bella dug (and I mean literally) to the bottom to select the only multi-colored bear in the lot. She simply HAD to have it.

While so many parents will just grab a toy off the shelf and attach the tag, the entire process of picking out the toy was very special to us today. I talked to Bella a lot about why we were doing this and how it’s very important. While she kept asking what the little girl’s name was, I think she’s finally starting to understand. While she dug in the bin, she kept telling me she wanted to find the “perfect” animal for this little girl. With her love of unicorns, I thought that’s actually what she would go after immediately but she had her own agenda.

In the end, my little girl was happy with her choice. We purchased the animal and dropped it off at the gym so they could take it the center to wrap and present to the family. I know it’s not much, but it feels great to know at least one other little girl will have a happier Christmas because my daughter dug to the bottom of the bin in a quest for the perfect pillow pet. I hope she likes it, wherever she is.

It’s strange, although I’m on the journey to change my health – there is so much more in my life that has changed. I don’t look at things the same way, and I don’t just mean the food labels. My outlook towards my family and my entire life and being has changed as a result of the changes to my food and exercise habits. So many things I never thought possible are coming true and things that just “existed” in my life now have a purpose.

This weight loss journey is bigger than just pounds lost on a scale. I’m truly changing my entire life, my husband’s life and most importantly – my daughter’s life because through all the hard work Bella will have her mommy healthier, happier, longer and able to do everything she ever dreams!

For those that follow and see me as inspiring, thank you! I hope you realize how much your messages and following touch my heart. I hope it inspires you to make your own changes and see your life move to a better place.