Well it’s been a little over six months since I committed to change myself. For those close to me, you know I’ve been struggling with the changes because quite frankly I never really saw the drastic differences. After my extremely delightful Friday when I bought size 18 jeans, a size 18 dress for Christmas (reveal coming soon) and generally just a really positive day – I started thinking it was time to take a photo and really compare them together.
So my family and I went with a couple of friends to Phipps Conservatory today in Pittsburgh. I thought the gardens would make an excellent spot to snap a few photos of myself. Of course, I was really just playing mama-razzi with my daughter because the backgrounds make for the most amazing images. I’ve shared some of my favorites with you here.
Now in reality, I don’t have a lot of great pictures with my daughter because I’ve always hated how I looked in them. I never wanted to be seen. My belly was always hanging out and well… I just never looked good or happy. I hated pictures of myself more and more over the years and I hated the thought that I didn’t have any with my daughter. Today, I don’t know what came over me. Everywhere I looked at a beautiful spot, I told my husband to take a photo. I’m pretty sure he was annoyed but he knew it was making me ever so happy.
The winter gardens are just simply beautiful with all the Christmas decorations. I simply couldn’t help myself. Above is a photo of Bella in the entrance with the beautiful Christmas flowers. At right here were are in front of one of the many Christmas trees. I actually love this photo. I look so happy with my daughter – something other images never convey!
When we got home, I started thinking about the photos my husband took for me. I know people keep saying the see the changes in me, but I really don’t see them. I know I’m buying smaller clothes, but I’m still just not seeing it. I went digging in the computer for the photo that started everything from back in July at my brother-in-laws wedding. The simple photo of me and my daughter that I banished from Facebook and really my life. I dug it out and put the one from today with it side by side. My jaw hit the floor. I just couldn’t believe what I was seeing! I really have changed. I’m happier in these photos. I look amazing in these photos. And … as one of my awesome friends on Facebook pointed out – I look YOUNGER in my photos (every woman’s dream)!
You be the judge – have I really changed so much. I swear I’m blind to this transformation. I never really saw the difference but I am today. I can’t wait to show you all the beautiful Christmas dress I picked out. I can’t believe it’s an 18 and I can’t believe how incredible I look!
The photo on the left is at the wedding in July of 2012 and my highest weight ever. The photo on the right is from today – December 2012. Over 40 pounds and a whole lot of my life back.